Today means its been 5 years since you left us. I miss you everyday. I think about you often. You weren’t here for the birth of my beautiful daughter and you won’t be here for my wedding next year and its so unfair. But I keep going because your not in pain anymore. I know you would be proud of me. I know you would love Anthony. Kennedy would be the perfect granddaughter. I miss you. I love you. Always. Forever. I promise Kennedy will know who you are. She will know grandma would have loved her very much and she will year stories…especially that one halloween with the milk duds. (I’m smiling thinking about it now) You will never be forgotten. Everytime I see/smell lilacs I think of you and smile. Everytime I see a hummingbird, I think of you. Oh hell, I don’t need a reason to think of you. Thank you for all you taught me. You were an amazing mom. Thank you for raising me. I love you.
RIP Joan Helen McLaughlin
August 16th,1946-October 31st, 2006
Ahhhh its that time of year again…its snowing in Colorado! I know, most people think I am nuts…I love the snow! I think it stems from brig overweight and growing up in the humidity of NY. I hated, let me repeat, hated the summer time. Well now I live in a dry place where its not humid, I am much lighter and the snow is so beautiful in the mountains.
Don’t get me wrong, if I had the chance, I would live in Arizona in a heart beat! I love the palm trees, mountains and cactus all in one! It’s so awesome. But Colorado is where I am. I don’t ski, snowboard or in fact, I have only been in the mountains like twice (I know, I’m lame!) But now that Kennedy is here, rest assured I will be up there more often because dontcha know she’s my future snow bunny? 😉
I want to lose more weight. I am about 20 lbs from my WLS goal. 170 is perfect for me. I am about 189. I want to be 170 by next year for the wedding. Is it possible? I don’t know. I have all my skin and let’s be honest here…I love rice, bread, soda and chocolate. Otherwise, I don’t eat TOO horribly. I don’t drink protein shakes or use proton powder…it is absolutely disgusting! I don’t have the money to go crazy buying every brand to try flavors, etc. Sooo here I am. 2 years out and needing to kick start my weight loss again by going back to the basics!
Any good suggestions to getting back on track?! Good apps to track food/carbs/etc. ?
So a blog I follow, Scary Mommy , posted about a child having a fit on her Facebook this morning and how she was glad it wasn’t hers for once. Well I have to say I usually agree with that statement. I see kids throwing fits (I work in a kids clothing store) so sometimes I sit back and think *thank god it isn’t my kid* but Miss Kennedy will have her day…which I think is going to be sooner than later. She has the scream.
Ok so the scream is her way of being pissed at 7 months old. It is SO high pitch, I think my ears bleed. She does it when you take something away, when she thinks you are ignoring her or just because she feels like it but its extremely unpleasant. Yes, she’s our only child but I don’t think she is spoiled. I know I’m her mom but I do tell her no ( she may not fully understand) and we don’t give her everything she reaches for but I have no way to stop this scream. She is a very calm baby. She doesnt really cry unless she’s hurt and she laughs and smiles all the time. She is loving and easy going…except when shes mad!
Well I guess my day will continue with high pitch screams and beatuiful smiles.
Please let her not be a terrible toddler!
October 13th, 2012.
WE ARE GETTING MARRIED!! YAY!!!
I’m excited to finally be officially married, not that we don’t have a beautiful daughter together and we are already a family but it means more than a piece of paper. I’m excited to dress in white and walk down the aisle. Planning is already semi overwhelming because of all the little details but I’m excited!!
Any tips/advice to make planning easier?
So we are back, back to Colorado and reality. I love to visit home and my family but its also nice to be back here. I love the rocky mountains and the nice cool Colorado air. Kennedy did pretty well for flying for the first time. I think she likes it like mommy does!!
Kennedy got to meet some great people this week, like her Uncle Doug (pictured). Such an awesome man and I’m SO happy he was able to come and meet Kennedy. And of course all her other aunts, uncles, cousins and of course Grandpa! (pictured)
I had some really good laughs, a few too many drinks, and I miss you guys back home! Cheers to beers!