Ok so yesterday was Day 1 of the pouch test. Holy shit was it hard!!! Well in my previous post, I told you I am not a fan of protein shakes, etc. Well I managed to finish 20 oz of a protein shake throughout the day. I made it more like a milkshake and it helped a little. I am going to try again today to at least finish one throughout the day. I know it helps. but I had horrible headaches, dizziness and I was just plain grumpy. I had that shake. I also had some soup I had in my pantry which wasn’t the best but I had to do something before I passed out. I ate some chicken noodle soup from Campbell’s. I mostly just drank the broth and had a few bites of the stuff but barely any of it. I also drank lots and lots of water. It helped a little but the hunger was so hard. By 530 pm I was in tears when Anthony got home. He made me go to the store and get more soup. I got Progresso Light which tastes amazing by the way! And I am not just saying that because of lack of food, their soup is delicious and I am not a soup fan lol. But anyway, I also broke down and had about 5 saltines throughout the day. I know I didn’t completely ruin the test but it was literally horrible. At one point, I thought I was going to pass out. They helped and I did NOT eat them all at once. I would have one here and maybe an hour later another. I tried hard not to do it but I had to not be passing out!
So day 1 was rough and of course this morning I woke up with a killer headache. I hope day 2 goes by fast because frankly, this fucking sucks! And on a different note, Kennedy is 10 months old today!!!! I love her sweet little face but sad/happy for her to grow up. Its such a mix of emotions and maybe I will cry. Probably more for lack of food then her actually being 10 months but whatever! lol
and another from last night with my headphones. I laughed hysterically!
PS- I hope people will be on the call today with Tracy aka My Tiny Tank. Her weekly support call is amazing and I love being able to talk to you guys! I can’t make the call tomorrow night due to work but I will be on today!!! Contact Tracy if you have any questions!!
I must say goodbye to peeing by myself….Kennedy crawled for the first time last night. Anthony and I were both standing there and she just randomly went back about 5x and then sat up. I am so excited we were both home to see it because honestly, I was going to be a little peeved if he saw it and I didn’t and I am sure he felt the same way. I have to say that we have both had our shares of firsts separately with her and although, as a mom, you want to see them all, I am glad he has seen some himself with her. But crawling and walking? way bigger deal for both of us to see her do it together. So that is how Kennedy started out her new year and ours!! I am excited for whats in store and maybe I will be biting my tongue later for saying that but I am! I have a feeling she won’t be crawling long though, she would much rather walk and she isn’t too terribly far away.
Now back to peeing by myself, well I know that this would soon come to an end. I have read about it on other mommy blogs where you can’t even go get a tissue without child in tow. Well I know that Kennedy will be that child because she whimpers sometimes if you walk behind a wall for 2 seconds! So as she begins the adventure of getting the hang of moving around, my days are shortened. Maybe I will start peeing with the door closed for these last few times because lets be honest, we have to listen for anything and if I am home with just Anthony or Kennedy, I totally pee with the door open.
And I hope everyone had a safe new year and enjoy what 2012 has in store!
I know you read the title and you were confused…nap restarting? What in the heck is that? Well its my name for what Kennedy does to me every couple of weeks. We have to restart her love to nap alone. OK I probably just confused you…let me back track a little. Kennedy does not like to be rocked, held, cuddled, etc. She is a lone ranger when it comes to going to sleep. She always has been (well minus the first month of her life when mommy was so tired that Kennedy slept on my chest a lot in the middle of the night..opps?) Anyway, every few weeks Kennedy needs a little help loving her naps by herself again. What she does is she gets SO over tired I have to basically take a nap with her because she refuses to sleep in her crib. She is already a tough kid to lay down for a nap…she fights tooth and nail to not have to sleep in the middle of the day. She is odd because at night, she is out like a light. She goes to sleep with little issue.
Well guess what today was? Nap restarting day!
This takes about 45-1 hour to complete with her. I have to get her binkie and her blanket and go into Mommy and Daddy’s bed and fight her to sleep. I have to sing “You are my sunshine” and “twinkle twinkle little star” 20x each, tickle her face, and force her to keep her blanket near her somewhere because she likes to hold it when she sleeps. This is a huge ordeal. I can get her relaxed and any slightest move from the dog or the cat, shes wide awake again. Oh and all this is happening usually while she is screaming her head off and pulling her binkie out of her mouth every 2 seconds. Well today was slightly different, she wasn’t screaming but I got her very relaxed but she wasn’t going to sleep. I thought maybe I read the signals wrong (besides the fact she has only slept an hour today) so I pulled the whole “fake sleeping mommy” trick. I laid there with my eyes almost shut ( I had to watch her) and waited. She tossed and turned, tried to play with my lip ring, and then finally fell asleep…only after I did! I sometimes nap with her but usually I get out of there ASAP. She kicks….really hard. But I fell asleep. I woke up with drool on my hand. Yeah lovely picture huh? I was “fake sleeping” but really did fall asleep.
I am such an amateur.
So I have the cutest dinosaur, well, ever! Halloween is not a time I dwell on my mom being gone. Am I sad? Yes, of course. Do I think of her? Everyday. BUT I do not sit in the corner and cry. There is NO point. So every since, I made sure Halloween was fun and now that I have Kennedy, it will always be so much fun. So this year she was too young to trick or treat (which sucks for mommy and daddy cuz that means no candy!) And I had to work so I did put her in costume and Anthony brought her out to the mall where I work.
She’s the cutest dinosaur…ever!!
So a blog I follow, Scary Mommy , posted about a child having a fit on her Facebook this morning and how she was glad it wasn’t hers for once. Well I have to say I usually agree with that statement. I see kids throwing fits (I work in a kids clothing store) so sometimes I sit back and think *thank god it isn’t my kid* but Miss Kennedy will have her day…which I think is going to be sooner than later. She has the scream.
Ok so the scream is her way of being pissed at 7 months old. It is SO high pitch, I think my ears bleed. She does it when you take something away, when she thinks you are ignoring her or just because she feels like it but its extremely unpleasant. Yes, she’s our only child but I don’t think she is spoiled. I know I’m her mom but I do tell her no ( she may not fully understand) and we don’t give her everything she reaches for but I have no way to stop this scream. She is a very calm baby. She doesnt really cry unless she’s hurt and she laughs and smiles all the time. She is loving and easy going…except when shes mad!
Well I guess my day will continue with high pitch screams and beatuiful smiles.
Please let her not be a terrible toddler!