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My Background


OK since this has been brought up twice in one day in two different occasion, I want to talk about it. I have a story…well I know we all do and mine happens to be super long and complicated. I am not going into large detail as some things don’t need to be on my blog for all the universe to see but I think I am ready to share a little background.

I was raised by my paternal grandparents. That is mom and dad. When I reference my mom, she is actually my grandma and when I talk about my dad, it is my grandfather. I believe mom and dad are terms for the people who raise you, maybe not so much the people who had a part in conception. I was never legally adopted but my mom did get legal guardianship. I was taken from my birth place in Killeen, Texas to Canisteo, NY when I was a mere 8 days old and this is where I would grow up.

Ok let’s skip all the growing up stuff because it really isn’t relevant to why I am writing this. So my real mom, Janice, died in 2000(I was 12). I didn’t know her. I knew she existed because I was aware of my situation but I have never had a conversation with her. So when I turned 18 (2006), I received money from her death. (PS-never give large amounts of money to an irresponsible 18-year-old child) I also received papers from the court, which I found out I have two half brothers and another relative of hers (her cousin who handled the court proceedings). I have never tried to contact my brothers because they are younger and at the time, still underage. They are now 20 and 18.

I know nothing about my mother’s side of the family. I don’t know medical history. I don’t know if my grandparents are even alive or even a name. I know nothing. I felt the urge to know and I have wanted to know for some time but never did anything about it. Well tonight I reached out to my twitter followers for some advice. Obviously Facebook is easy to “stalk” someone if you know their names. Well I decided to look them up…found them! Ok now what? Well I asked for advice.

Thanks to Liz and Laura, they told me go for it…so I did! I sent a Facebook message to both of them. I feel kind of lame for sending a message over Facebook but really how else can I contact them? If they don’t contact me back, that is ok too. They don’t have to want to talk to me or even tell me anything. I hope they do (maybe someday), I would like to know my mother’s side. Well lets see if their backfires or works…





In a side note: I found my wedding dress this weekend! but that’s for another post 😉


As we age


Tonight I attended a “retirement” party. A manager at my current job is leaving after many years in retail and not looking back. It’s awesome. But it makes you think…where will I be when I am ready to retire? What am I going to be doing to deserve a party to celebrate your career path? What am I doing now to achieve my goals of where I want to be?

Want to know the answer? I have no flipping idea. I am 23 years old and I don’t know what I want to be “when I grow up”. I want  to set an example for Kennedy and do something that she can be proud of her mommy for but what the heck is that? I’m lost and hopefully will find my way to figure it out.

What do you want to be when you grow up?