Ok so yesterday was Day 1 of the pouch test. Holy shit was it hard!!! Well in my previous post, I told you I am not a fan of protein shakes, etc. Well I managed to finish 20 oz of a protein shake throughout the day. I made it more like a milkshake and it helped a little. I am going to try again today to at least finish one throughout the day. I know it helps. but I had horrible headaches, dizziness and I was just plain grumpy. I had that shake. I also had some soup I had in my pantry which wasn’t the best but I had to do something before I passed out. I ate some chicken noodle soup from Campbell’s. I mostly just drank the broth and had a few bites of the stuff but barely any of it. I also drank lots and lots of water. It helped a little but the hunger was so hard. By 530 pm I was in tears when Anthony got home. He made me go to the store and get more soup. I got Progresso Light which tastes amazing by the way! And I am not just saying that because of lack of food, their soup is delicious and I am not a soup fan lol. But anyway, I also broke down and had about 5 saltines throughout the day. I know I didn’t completely ruin the test but it was literally horrible. At one point, I thought I was going to pass out. They helped and I did NOT eat them all at once. I would have one here and maybe an hour later another. I tried hard not to do it but I had to not be passing out!
So day 1 was rough and of course this morning I woke up with a killer headache. I hope day 2 goes by fast because frankly, this fucking sucks! And on a different note, Kennedy is 10 months old today!!!! I love her sweet little face but sad/happy for her to grow up. Its such a mix of emotions and maybe I will cry. Probably more for lack of food then her actually being 10 months but whatever! lol
and another from last night with my headphones. I laughed hysterically!
PS- I hope people will be on the call today with Tracy aka My Tiny Tank. Her weekly support call is amazing and I love being able to talk to you guys! I can’t make the call tomorrow night due to work but I will be on today!!! Contact Tracy if you have any questions!!
Kennedy turned 9 months old on Saturday the 10th!! Oh man this is going by WAY fast. She is close to crawling (which we didn’t think she would because she would MUCH rather stand) and soon to follow will probably walking. Also, do you see those teeth?!?! We are going to her appointment tomorrow morning so I will let you know how large my 9 month is (the size of at least a 1-year-old) haha. And speaking of, we went to a local mall here on Saturday. The cow was out and about…*side note* I am not a fan because the restaurant is against gay marriage and use profits to fight it (their food also makes me vomit post weight loss surgery), I did think it would be funny to let Kennedy get up close. Her only interest….to feel him up HAHA.
In other news, I have NOT heard from my brothers. I don’t know if they ever check FB or maybe they don’t want to talk, which is fine. They are still younger than me and probably not in the same spot as I am (mom, engaged, etc.) But I will try again later! I won’t lose hope! 🙂
On to other things, can you believe its 13 days until Christmas?! I am so excited! We went to a birthday party tonight ( Happy 40th Birthday Chris!) and saw SO many beautiful homes decorated to the trees! It was so beautiful! I LOVE this time of the year! I hope Kennedy loves it as much as I do :-). Anthony’s dad had me convinced to run a 5k this Saturday and have post race cinnamon rolls that he is going to make (yum!)…it is a Ugly Sweater 5k but he thought it was free to run as long as you had on an ugly sweater (similar to the Turkey Trot where you bring a can of food to run) but its $30…which is not a bad race price but this momma is broke! haha. Maybe next year! BTW, I have NOT run since September but starting in January, Anthony and I are training for the Denver Marathon in October! Woo Hoo! Bring it on 26 miles! I will make you my bitch 🙂
Tonight I attended a “retirement” party. A manager at my current job is leaving after many years in retail and not looking back. It’s awesome. But it makes you think…where will I be when I am ready to retire? What am I going to be doing to deserve a party to celebrate your career path? What am I doing now to achieve my goals of where I want to be?
Want to know the answer? I have no flipping idea. I am 23 years old and I don’t know what I want to be “when I grow up”. I want to set an example for Kennedy and do something that she can be proud of her mommy for but what the heck is that? I’m lost and hopefully will find my way to figure it out.
What do you want to be when you grow up?