Today means its been 5 years since you left us. I miss you everyday. I think about you often. You weren’t here for the birth of my beautiful daughter and you won’t be here for my wedding next year and its so unfair. But I keep going because your not in pain anymore. I know you would be proud of me. I know you would love Anthony. Kennedy would be the perfect granddaughter. I miss you. I love you. Always. Forever. I promise Kennedy will know who you are. She will know grandma would have loved her very much and she will year stories…especially that one halloween with the milk duds. (I’m smiling thinking about it now) You will never be forgotten. Everytime I see/smell lilacs I think of you and smile. Everytime I see a hummingbird, I think of you. Oh hell, I don’t need a reason to think of you. Thank you for all you taught me. You were an amazing mom. Thank you for raising me. I love you.
RIP Joan Helen McLaughlin
August 16th,1946-October 31st, 2006
August 16th. The day my mom was born. She would have been 65 this year.
Her birthday is on Tuesday. I always think of her but recently its been even more than usual. I miss her.
I know life isn’t fair and honestly, I think I handle it pretty well. I try not to make myself feel sorry for what I can’t control but I’m having my own little pity party here. Why did she have to die?! Life isn’t fair!
She will never get the chance to hear Kennedy laugh or smile or cry or anything! It’s so unfair. She can’t help me when I have a question about motherhood or show me a better way. Why isn’t she close enough to have family dinner or call up just to chat?
Ok, I know I’m being a whiner right now but damnit! It makes me so angry and so sad..I miss my mommy!
October 31st. The day my mom left. Yup, Halloween. 545 am if you must know. I watched her take her final breath.
I don’t want sympathy, I just wish this didn’t happen. It’s been 5 years this year. I am going to trying to celebrate Kennedy’s first Halloween while missing her more than ever.
I am not religious (yes, I know that I’m with a highly devoted Catholic and my daughter is baptized Catholic lol) but there is a hope that she is in a happy place, maybe it is heaven or maybe its just a huge kitchen filled with a billion recipes, her mom, PBR and some good music. Oh, and she is pain free…thats a must!
I miss you mom. Everyday, all day until the end of time. You were my rock and I just hope that you would be proud of me. I love you. And Kennedy is of course the most beautiful granddaughter and I KNOW she is perfect.
August 16th,1946 to October 31st, 2006