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Alright its been a few weeks and life was a little busy for a second. I was working more hours (yay!) and obviously taking care of Kennedy and then wedding planning makes me drained sometimes. Thinking about everything that needs to be paid for, planned, etc. Honestly, I now understand why people hire other people to do this for them and if I was rich, I totally would! We have major stuff done- reception place, photographer, dj, flowers. I have picked out other important things and I have finalized decisions on the bridesmaids. But all the little things are what get me! I can’t stand this. Really in 20 years is it going to matter what fucking color the flower girls pedals are? or what shoes my bridesmaids are wearing? or how their hair was? PROBABLY NOT! I am very good about being easy about things and going with the flow because I know it won’t matter to me and actually, it doesn’t really matter to me now. I know that things need to coordinate, etc. and I want it to be nice but when I am walking down the aisle, do you think I am paying attention to what color flowers I am stepping on? NO. I am focused on 1st- not falling and 2nd- reaching the altar to marry my fiance! So that’s my feeling on the wedding stuff lately haha!

I have been working out and running and so far its been ok. I ran 3 miles on my birthday (23rd of Jan) in about 31 mins. It’s not very fast but I say its pretty damn good for someone who hasn’t run in 4 months! I have been also lifting weights and  eating healthier. I jumped on the bad food bandwagon this weekend and needs to hop off! I slipped a little but I am back to the good stuff! I know that I need to get faster for the marathon because they shut down the course if you don’t make it in time, you are screwed. I wish I knew how to get faster but maybe it will come in time. I will keep you posted!

In other news, if you are NOT on the support call with Tracy & other fabulous people, you need to be! It’s such a great support and I really look forward to talking to this wonderful ladies every week!! If you need more information go to her website or you can always contact me.

And that is my update for now. I am working on getting back into blogging more. I need to only devote a certain amount of time each day to the wedding or I could be looking at stuff for hours, which is NOT a good idea for me haha! And pinterest is the best idea in the whole world, end of story! lol


PS- Today is Anthony & I’s 3rd year anniversary and I have to say I didn’t think I would be a mom now but I love every minute and I love him. I am excited to get married to this man and I am excited for all the things to come!


I Made It Through Day 2


Day 2 is officially closed! I may or may not have done a happy dance…ok I didn’t really dance but I feel so happy to be done with that! Yesterday wasn’t as bad as day 1 for me. I do the support call with Tracy aka Tiny Tank every Tuesday afternoon (morning for me) at 12pm EST. I also usually join the Wednesday evening call at 8:30pm EST but this week, I have to work…anyway! It was SO helpful. Tracy picks topics for the week and we talk about them but this week since it was just me and her, we talked about the pouch test. She has done it before but the call REALLY helped my attitude yesterday. Encouragement is a huge thing and something you don’t realize how important it is unless you get it. Don’t get me wrong, Anthony has been WAY more supportive and encouraging these past two days than I like to admit I have been to him but sometimes you need an outside source to help chug you along even more. I would say I was pretty proud of myself yesterday. I drank a 15oz protein shake in about 10-15 minutes!!! I did the same as yesterday with the GMC Total Lean Rich Chocolate and made it like a milkshake then added cinnamon and nutmeg…the nutmeg REALLY helps hid the protein taste as well as tone down the sweetness of the chocolate. It was actually pretty good. I had two cans of soup throughout the day and again some saltines but not a ton and it really helped me make it through with a saltine or two throughout the day. I know that is “cheating” but I say, screw it. I didn’t sit here and eat steak so I think I did pretty good! I also made another shake the same way for a second time, that didn’t go down so smooth but I did finish it..eventually! Now this test is not about losing weight but I decided to use the scale the whole time just to see how my body handled it weight wise. I repeat, I am not doing this to lose weight because this is not the purpose of it. It is to get back on track. And I must say, I have gained weight but I am confident once my marathon training begins next week, it will fall back off! I am not even worried!


Cheers to a beautiful snowy morning with my cheesy eggs and yogurt. OMG ITS SO DELICIOUS!

Online Weight Loss Support


Ok so I have this amazing fellow blogger who is doing something awesome and it’s just kicking off. I wanted to post about it here because the more the merrier!

Tracy aka My Tiny Tank started an online weight loss surgery support group conference call (try to say that twenty times fast!) and I think everybody should know about it! I will explain it but also, please hop over to her site here to find out more and to join in!

Ok so this call is flexible to your schedule. There are currently two different times but she is open to more! Basically, every week, for one hour, you are on a conference call with different people. You don’t have to have had weight loss surgery to join because maybe you are thinking about it but want support or to ask questions..join! You could be 10 years out and want some extra support from people who understand. I think it’s a great thing she is doing and it allows people who connect on Twitter, Facebook, YouTube, etc. on a daily basis to talk and support each other beyond 140 characters or emailing!

I will be joining my first call next week on Tuesday from 12pm-1pm Eastern time so I hope you will join us too! So even if you are not sure or maybe I don’t do it justice…head over here to read more about it and feel free to contact Tracy with questions or if you want to, ask them right here!



So I found this video on YouTube today randomly. It REALLY pissed me off. My blood is boiling. It was a video about her friend dying from weight loss surgery within 5 days and another friend of hers who didn’t lose weight after she got the lap band. First off…Your friend had weight loss surgery by CHOICE and she died from complications. Well guess what? ANYBODY COULD DIE IN SURGERY. They tell you that, that’s why you sign forms. My doctor’s statistics for death were less that 1% and I could have been that 1%. I started to panic on the way to the operating room, to the point where I knocked the gas mask out of the hand of the anesthesiologist. I could have died but I am thankful that I didn’t.  I am sad for her loss because no matter how someone dies, its sad. BUT don’t blame weight loss surgery because (I know this is one-sided) maybe the doctor fucked up? Maybe a nurse did? Maybe she was too overweight to have surgery? There are so many reasons for complications!!!!!!

Secondly, for your friend who didn’t lose weight after the lap band…you have to change your way of thinking and your habits or YOU WILL NOT LOSE WEIGHT. It could also be that you were too overweight for the lap band. Is weight loss surgery an easy way out? NO. Is weight loss surgery for everybody? NO. Is Lap Band for everybody? NO. Is Roux-en-y for everybody? NO. Is the Gastric Sleeve for everybody? NO. Weight loss surgery is a TOOL to help you succeed. I have been very lucky and have lost 115 lbs since my surgery in August 2009. I had Roux-en-y and that is very different from lap band. I know a few of my twitter followers who had lap band and then went on to get it reversed to the sleeve. Your doctor should point in the right direction to which surgery may be best for you. I wanted the lap band to begin with and after speaking with my doctor, I got Roux-en-y. Why? Because the lap band wasn’t for me. I listened to the doctor and his comparison of the two and realized I would never succeed in the lap band. The lap band is a slower moving process. An average of 2-4 lbs a week. I was 320 lbs, do you know how long it would have taken me to reach my current weight of 188 lbs? Yeah, I would have never succeed. And I must say…we can’t all be Bigger Loser contestants with that kind of training 8-10 hours a day because IT IS UNREALISTIC. I know there have been people to succeed from that show but most gain some/all their weight back. I have struggled and I still  struggle to make better choices in my life but if I didn’t do anything, I would not lose weight and/or gain it all back. I know people in the community have gained their weight back or struggle with the last 20 lbs and I just wish them the best in making daily choices to help get back on track but I also know these people are not blaming weight loss surgery for not keeping the weight off, etc.

I am sure I could search YouTube for videos bashing weight loss surgery but I don’t think I have ever touched on how much this pisses me off so a random video prompted this. I haven’t encountered anybody to have anything negative to say to my face so maybe that is where this anger is coming from. I just wanted to clear this up because I am a very open person. We could play 100 questions and I will answer all to my ability. I don’t hide the fact that I had Gastric Bypass or anything that has happened. The first three months after surgery? I felt like death. I couldn’t eat anything except yogurt and cottage cheese but EVERYTHING got stuck. I ended up having to get an upper GI done and they have to open up my connection so I will never say my surgery was the EASY way out. I struggle everyday to take all my vitamins, saggy skin, my body image, sweets, protein intake and portion control. I am only human but I will always be honest with my struggles.I would rather you ask me about it then speculate so if anybody reading this blog has ANY questions, even just because you want to know, ASK. I will answer them or at least give you somewhere to find the answer.

I do want to thank everybody in my life for their support. I have talked to some people and see blogs/comments/tweets about family not being ok with their choice to have surgery and I say…ROCK ON! Keep doing what you doing because you made a decision to change your life. 🙂